Onesixsix's Journals

How I feel about this romantic/vampire/~luvvvvv~ phenomenon...

"Maybe it’s that I think romance is gay, or maybe it’s because I like my vampires to follow traditional rules and burn when they go in the sunlight, not turn into fucking disco balls. I dunno. I hate Twilight."

- Ashlee Adams

the reasons i can't stand watching girls my age not eat/admiring the "beauty" of stick thin women

if you know me, you'll know i'm the "curvier" sister in my family.

my 21 year old sister is 5'7"-5'8" and weighs something like 44kg (~96lbs). she hasn't got a tiny frame either.

she still lives with the family. i watch her, every single day, stress over her weight, complain about her body, feel like she's not good enough.

and you're welcoming those feelings in, praising the stick thin.

my sister looks fucking ill. she looks like the after photos in girls struggling with anorexia. it's disgusting, it's scaring the shit out of my family... and it's also tearing us apart.

please. help it stop.
love yourself for what you are... if you're naturally thin, then that's you. if you're naturally all hips and ass, then that's you! the womens figure is dead sexy, especially with confidence.

so tomorrow, when you go out, i want you to project yourself, just a little more.

i love you all, be safe, take care, eat fruit.

<3<3

And now I know exactly what it feels like.

I just wish we'd taken the time.
This hits too close to home.

I'm a blank person, with a blank personality.

So it happens.
We finally grasp something that feels so real and we think it's different this time... well, yeah, it is, until we get it ripped out of our hands... again. Right in front of us.

It was a long journey to begin with.
I don't know if I could do it again.

I just hope you realize that.

maybe if i just pretended to be alive

would it really be that different? would it?

THIS IS URGENT

SPAM ME WITH .GIFS

Why Sleep When You Can Dream?

I lie awake and night and you're all I want. I don't want to need you, but I know I do. I fucking hate the lows, and that's what the rest of your family does to me... but you, you're different. You send me soaring at so many different levels.

So fast, so clean, so real.

I feel incomplete without you.

Summing up my night in a photo...

This was so much more sexual than it appears.

I think I just found the most life changing, hope bringing, Wikipedia article I'll ever read.

For anyone who knows me - or follows me on Twitter - you'll probably know that I have an extremely irregular sleeping pattern, and often find myself waking in the late afternoon and not sleeping until 6, 7, 8, or even 11am. Sometimes I don't sleep at all - but of the late, that's been much less. This has been going on for quite some time now - since I was 8 or 9 years old, I've had trouble sleeping, and when I did sleep, I had vivid, intense, and bizarre dreams. Since then, we've (my mum and I) have always assumed I have insomnia, though I've just taught my body to sleep at these odd hours. What struck me though - even with these dreams, I've found it getting easier and easier to sleep at these times. I thought it was just my body becoming used to my nocturnal ways... until I read this article.

*click*

I know for most of you it'll be a TL;DR situation, so I'll sum it up:

The article is about Delayed sleep-phase syndrome, a sleep disorder, that disables you from sleeping at a socially acceptable time. Little is known about the syndrome, and sufferers, much like me, are often misdiagnosed with chronic Insomnia. Patients can usually sleep well when they do sleep, and have a normal need for sleep, like people with 'normal' sleeping patterns. Patients awaken spontaneously and usually at the same time, without the need to set an alarm or be woken by something.

This was a breakthrough to me. I've suffered with a sleeping pattern that is coherent to all the symptoms of this disorder. It's crazy, because I let the "insomniac" diagnosis sit, when to me, it just didn't feel right. So, I urge you, if you aren't already like this - if what they're labelling you doesn't feel right, or the symtoms are a little off, look around. Ask around. Because like me you could find something that relates on all levels - and I can tell you, it's definitely relieving.

/written at 4.00am

Love and liquor;
Dani.

So...

cried. alot.